The drudgeries of life
Friday, February 18, 2011
Done masquerading :)
Ok folks! This is it...
For 6 long years, on and off, I've been typing out shit at this particular location.
And boy, when I look back, I've typed out lots of crazy posts out here... ranging from utterly childish, totally boyish, funnily desperate, amusingly naive, absurdly abusive, ecstatically happy, depressingly sad, completely smitten, manically romantic, absolutely philosophical, mind-numbingly nonsensical, to outrightly mature (or so I think!).
Talk about a masquerade of emotions :)
For a Friday that started with a flat tyre and ended with a very dear friend's marriage which I couldn't attend, today turned out to be a day that made me understand why someone coined the acronym TGIF (Thank God It's Friday, for the uninitiated)
Towards the end of the day, tugging along a bag of mixed emotions (or a mixed bag of emotions, if it sounds heavier!).
Since 2002 when I actually stepped out of home, I've been on the move all over the country.
But it was only in the last 3 years that I got to witness and experience big city life and big city people up close.
And 1100 days later, I still haven't figured out either of the two... these people and their lifestyles baffle me, forever a small town person by heart.
Once, maybe, I thought I came close to establishing a connection, but then there's so much congestion these days that the link simply failed :)
Oh well. "Nice try, but not for you... never", consoled an inner voice.
Time to move on to a much smaller place...
Moving on is funny, really.
It's like crossing a stream by stepping onto stones strewn about here and there in the water: while one foot, unsure of itself lands on the next stone, the other foot still remains fixated on the preceding stone, doubtful of whether to let go or not.
Anyway despite all of it, you somehow manage to rid yourself of all fears and the lagging foot shoots ahead!
Voila! Life as I know it...
Enough of the gobbledygook.
The crux of the matter: No more shall there be a masquerade of emotions. That's passe (starting this moment).
Thanks for the readership, comments, etc. :)
I now officialy declare this blog a dlog (dead blog, if you may... it'll exist for nostalgia's sake, but there'll never be another post added to it)
Cheers!
Labels: The End
Monday, February 07, 2011
Wonder days!
People have weird superstitions.
I have my own set of those. One of them is the notion that Mondays are meant to be horrible.
I'm sure not many people are going to pooh pooh this one :)
For the past month and a half though, I hardly got a chance to dread the onset of the first working day of the week... reason being I didn't even realize when the hell it showed up! Talk about being stuck in a time warp.
Today, though, was the kind of day, a few Mondays like which would put an end to the Garfield effect for me!
For starters, the atmosphere at work was as relaxed as it could ever be... unrestrained smiles and jaunty strides all around!
Like the quote goes: "When the cat's away, the mice will play" :p
When I walked out of office at 6 PM, after a lifetime I was leaving from work while it was still bright outside!
I had forgotten what it was like reaching home before 7 PM! Too bad I no longer work out at the gym... had a sudden craving for the same :|
Was on the phone with a friend when I heard a distant rumble which soon turned into a vicious thunder! Stepping out onto the balcony, I was infatuated with the sight in front of me... a thunderstorm that had wrapped itself around the whole of South City 2.
And for the nth time, I patted myself on the back for choosing to live in this place... 11 storeys above the world, looking over the expanse!
The unforeseen showers made the weather extremely pleasant.
Had the usual dinner with the usual companions, but as always it was nice!
Then the telephonic conversations... it's so much fun to talk and talk in the absence of work-related duress.
Only low point of the day was feeling bad about not making it to either of Kikad or LKP's marriages.
Anyway nothing so depressing that I'd need something to lull me to sleep... another first after a long time.
It's at normal times like this that I realize strumming the guitar is one of the best forms of catharsis, no matter how bad you're at it!
Poor people those from whose lives music is missing.
That's that.
Saturday night and Sunday were fun to the core. Monday turned out to be a gem of a day.
Lots of planning to do for the remaining days of the week!
Most of all, finding excuses escape the Valentine week brouhaha. No seriously, wasn't the V-Day more than enough that an entire week of farce had to be invented?!
Anyway, this is the week to look forward to.
Get this weird feeling I'm growing up.
Like Kevin Arnold says of this process in a favorite soap from the namesake period of my life, The Wonder Years:
“Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.”
And another process that's on the cards:
“Change is never easy. You fight to hold on. You fight to let go.”
I know for sure that many years down the line, I'd be echoing Kevin's following line for these wonder days:
"And the thing is, after all these years, I still look back...with wonder."
Good night!
And what the heck! Happy Rose Day @>-;'-
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
Quote for the day!
One of my school friends, Neha, started a trend ages ago: She'd handpick a quotation everyday, and early in the morning she'd mail it out to a bunch of friends.
Initially it seemed strange, and I'd just have a glance at the mail before moving on to other stuff.
Sometimes her "Thought for the day! :)" mails used to remain unread in my inbox for days at an end.
But then gradually, don't know when and how, these mails became a part of the daily routine... it fitted in beautifully!
Everyday morning, it is a pleasure to read unheard of sayings that made lots of sense, and strange enough, they fitted in with the happenings in life.
The fascinating thing about Neha is that despite her busy life (earlier a doctor, now an MBA student), she keeps the mails coming! And the days when she isn't able to send, we'll receive an apology mail the next day along with another gem :)
I wonder how many people reply to her mail. It's probably a thankless job (I know it's not a job, but still it's thankless)
I too seldom send her a reply, but sometimes when I really like her thought for the day, I send her a 'thank you, and keep it up' mail.
Seriously, mate! Thanks! And keep these gems coming :)
A collage of my favorite Thoughts of the Day from the lot:
"Without adversity, without change, life is boring. The paradox of comfort is that we stop trying." - John Amatt
The end does not justify the means. No one's rights can be secured by the violation of the rights of others. - Ayn Rand
Even after all this time the sun never says to the earth, "You owe Me". Look what happens with a love like that; it lights up the whole sky! - Hafiz
A smile is a powerful weapon; you can even break ice with it.:) - Anonymous
I don’t believe in failure. It is not failure if you enjoyed the process. Failure is defined by our reaction to it. - Oprah
Love is the ability & willingness to allow those that you care for to be what they choose for themselves, without any insistence that they satisfy you. - Dr Wayne Dyer
Beauty doesn't exist in things; beauty is a projection. Beauty is not objective; it is subjective. So one day somebody looks beautiful, another day the same person becomes ugly. It is you who projects, it is you who withdraws; the other works just as a screen. - Osho
There is one sad truth in life I've found while journeying east and west - the only folks we really wound are those we love the best. - Ella Wheeler Wilcox
A lot of people have gone farther than they thought they could because someone else thought they could. - Zig Ziglar
The one thing that doesn't abide by the majority rule is a person's conscience. - Harper Lee
If I were a medical man, I should prescribe a holiday to any patient who considered his work important. - Bertrand Russell
In order to keep a true perspective of one's own importance, everyone should have a dog that will worship and a cat that will ignore him. - Dereke Bruce
In every marriage more than a week old, there are grounds for divorce. The trick is to find, and continue to find, grounds for marriage. - Robert Anderson
Did you ever notice how difficult it is to argue with someone who is not obsessed with being right? - Dr Wayne Dyer
Every time you state what you want to believe, you’re the first to hear it. It’s a message to both you & others about what you think is possible. Don’t put a ceiling on yourself. - Oprah
That which you resist, stays. - David Hawkins
I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I have led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me & my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart & soul, and to me, this has always been enough. - Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook
The main thing is keeping the main thing the main thing. - German Proverb
Blessed is the person who is too busy to worry in the daytime and too sleepy to worry at night.- Anonymous
To love someone is to understand each other, to laugh together, to smile with your heart & to trust one another. One important thing is to let each other go if you can't do this. - Unknown
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much. - Mother Teresa
We experience moments absolutely free from worry. These brief respites are called panic. - Cullen Hightower
To the outside world we all grow old. But not to brothers and sisters. We know each other as we always were. We know each other's hearts. We share private family jokes. We remember family feuds & secrets, family griefs & joys. We live outside the touch of time. - Clara Ortega
While we believe our problems are the greatest & our misfortunes the worst, there is always someone out there who has suffered more. And just as they survived & triumphed over their suffering, we must too. - Ramayana
Love don't exist. There is only an endocrine response. - 'The Bachelor', the movie
Never bear more than one kind of trouble at a time. Some people bear three- all they've had, all they have now & all they expect to have. - Edward Everett Hale
There is only one pretty child in the world, and every mother has it. - Chinese proverb
"An ounce of mother is worth a ton of priest." - Spanish proverb
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
All in good time!
True happiness is totally underrated. Believe me :)
Today was all about a double bonanza! What a fab start to Feb!!
Don't you love to be surprised when you least expect it?!
But hey! Though it doesn't make sense to not be satisfied with some things & people in life, you really need to be dissatisfied with certain other things.
No looking back now!
Forward march! Hut-two-three-four. Hut-two-three-four.
One step at a time is the way to go...
