The drudgeries of life
Friday, April 14, 2006
The life cycle
Ever since I can remember, I've been struggling to make up my mind about things... simple things, complicated things, things which matter, and even things which don't. There has never been an easy way out, not for me at least. Just when it seems I'm gonna get a break from the rigorous decision-making that life is all about, somebody is there or something happens in order to ensure that my mind keeps vacillating! It's useless to state examples and try to analyze them... they're too many of the same.
There are times when I feel lost in the wilderness that life is... every now and then I seem to be venturing into unchartered territory. One day everything is fine, everything's going your way! Voila! In a jiffy, it seems like you've take a wrong turn and before you can turn back and get back on track, you're out of fuel! I have no idea how this comes to happen, but somehow everytime I have a bad dream, the gist of which I usually don't remember on getting up, it's effect haunts me throughout the day. As if nightmares aren't enough, daymares have added to the misery! Sometimes I'm just plain and simple fed up with life! But then, just when I'm on the brink of giving up and accepting defeat, there's a glimmer of hope. People around me, unknown to them, instil in me the confidence to keep moving on and accept things as they come. and thus, the never-ending circle of life goes on and on.
As an afterthought, I probably underestimate myself when it comes to my acting skills... no one would be able to tell the difference between the normal me and the me on bad days, except on a few really very bad days ofcourse! I guess it's the same case with many others, who knows maybe everyone! Maybe...
It's kinda strange but I notice an uncanny resemblance between myself and Kevin Arnold's character in the TV series The Wonder Years! The only catch is that he was a full-blooded teenager in the series and I, on the other hand, will be all of 22 this October! Boy, do I feel old or what?
Don't know what got into me today! Probably the frustration of being a sluggard when it came to working on my project, maybe the excessive usage of the romantic French language(Urgh!) that I've been subjected to in the past 2 weeks, might be the thought of having to fast the whole day, today being Good Friday and all, or who knows the recurring thought of having to venture out into the big, bad world in a couple of months. Whatever the reason, it is at moments like these that I get the feeling that realization has dawned, only to realize later that there is much more to be realized...;)
There are times when I feel lost in the wilderness that life is... every now and then I seem to be venturing into unchartered territory. One day everything is fine, everything's going your way! Voila! In a jiffy, it seems like you've take a wrong turn and before you can turn back and get back on track, you're out of fuel! I have no idea how this comes to happen, but somehow everytime I have a bad dream, the gist of which I usually don't remember on getting up, it's effect haunts me throughout the day. As if nightmares aren't enough, daymares have added to the misery! Sometimes I'm just plain and simple fed up with life! But then, just when I'm on the brink of giving up and accepting defeat, there's a glimmer of hope. People around me, unknown to them, instil in me the confidence to keep moving on and accept things as they come. and thus, the never-ending circle of life goes on and on.
As an afterthought, I probably underestimate myself when it comes to my acting skills... no one would be able to tell the difference between the normal me and the me on bad days, except on a few really very bad days ofcourse! I guess it's the same case with many others, who knows maybe everyone! Maybe...
It's kinda strange but I notice an uncanny resemblance between myself and Kevin Arnold's character in the TV series The Wonder Years! The only catch is that he was a full-blooded teenager in the series and I, on the other hand, will be all of 22 this October! Boy, do I feel old or what?
Don't know what got into me today! Probably the frustration of being a sluggard when it came to working on my project, maybe the excessive usage of the romantic French language(Urgh!) that I've been subjected to in the past 2 weeks, might be the thought of having to fast the whole day, today being Good Friday and all, or who knows the recurring thought of having to venture out into the big, bad world in a couple of months. Whatever the reason, it is at moments like these that I get the feeling that realization has dawned, only to realize later that there is much more to be realized...;)
Sunday, April 09, 2006
7, my lucky number?!
I've somehow managed to temporarily forget about procrastinating things and get things done as and when they crop up! At present, I don't have anything to bother about except my B. Tech. project which I'll start first thing tomorrow morning:D! So, it's about time I replied to this 5-month old tag which I had begun replying in November but left it half-done in a notepad on my pal's computer! Phew! Talk about a backlog!! Sorry for the delay, Megz!
I. 7 things i want to do before i die:
1. Undoubtedly, get laid:((
2. Live my life to the full, get married and have a wonderful married life, have beautiful kids, enjoy their childhood and grow old with them, and finally play with my grandchildern and let them take advantage of their sweettoothed Granpa:D! (Sheesh! Talk about getting carried away!)
3. Sing on stage
4. Learn French so well that when i speak in the language, people mistake me for a French dude!
5. See the whole friggin' world
6. Bungee jump!!
7. Learn to play atleast one musical instrument
II. 7 things i can do:
1. Flirt flirt flirt
2. Lose my temper in a jiffy
3. Lift 70+ Kgs when it comes to the bench press
4. Pull anyone and everyone's leg
5. Prepare great tea (atleast my Dad thinks so:D)
6. Lie convincingly (beware:P!)
7. Spend hours at an end in front of the mirror (the myth of Narcissus anyone:D?!)
III. 7 things i say the most:
1. Fuck!!
2. Sexy!!!
3. Holy shit!
4. You've gotta be kidding me:o!
5. What the ...?!
6. Sahi hai!!
7. Awesome!
IV. 7 things i cant do:
1. Say cheese for a snap
2. Learn from my mistakes
3. Have a bath without engaging in bathroom-singing;)
4. Go on stage and speak without shaking and shivering!
5. Take advantage of my physique! (Lol! Sad but true!!)
6. Overcome nostalgia *sigh*
7. Show procrastination the middle finger for a change
V. 7 things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1. Long hair
2. Beautiful eyes
3. Confidence
4. Decent dressing sense
5. No pretense... her just being herself
6. Easy to talk to and responsive
7. A good sense of humour
VI. 7 Celebrity crushes:
1. Keira Knightly
2. Nicole Kidman
3. Kate Winslet
4. Charlize Theron
5. Priyanka Chopra
6. Rani Mukherjee
7. Pamela Anderson (Comon folks! It's kinda natural! I was a kid when Barbwire hit the cinemas:P)
VII. 7 people i want to tag:
I'm sure the ones to be named here will curse me for coming back and making their lives miserable! But sorry guys! What has to be done, has to be done!
1. Divya
2. Naresh
3. Vivek (Comon buddy! Take out time for some less serious issues:P!)
4. Bhavesh (Same goes to you too! And this is quite an easy tag!)
5. VK (You're not working on the BTP, so might as well...:P)
6. Sameer Dwivedi
7. Amod
Next up is Naresh's tag! It's one tag I'd really like typing out the reply to;)!
I. 7 things i want to do before i die:
1. Undoubtedly, get laid:((
2. Live my life to the full, get married and have a wonderful married life, have beautiful kids, enjoy their childhood and grow old with them, and finally play with my grandchildern and let them take advantage of their sweettoothed Granpa:D! (Sheesh! Talk about getting carried away!)
3. Sing on stage
4. Learn French so well that when i speak in the language, people mistake me for a French dude!
5. See the whole friggin' world
6. Bungee jump!!
7. Learn to play atleast one musical instrument
II. 7 things i can do:
1. Flirt flirt flirt
2. Lose my temper in a jiffy
3. Lift 70+ Kgs when it comes to the bench press
4. Pull anyone and everyone's leg
5. Prepare great tea (atleast my Dad thinks so:D)
6. Lie convincingly (beware:P!)
7. Spend hours at an end in front of the mirror (the myth of Narcissus anyone:D?!)
III. 7 things i say the most:
1. Fuck!!
2. Sexy!!!
3. Holy shit!
4. You've gotta be kidding me:o!
5. What the ...?!
6. Sahi hai!!
7. Awesome!
IV. 7 things i cant do:
1. Say cheese for a snap
2. Learn from my mistakes
3. Have a bath without engaging in bathroom-singing;)
4. Go on stage and speak without shaking and shivering!
5. Take advantage of my physique! (Lol! Sad but true!!)
6. Overcome nostalgia *sigh*
7. Show procrastination the middle finger for a change
V. 7 things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1. Long hair
2. Beautiful eyes
3. Confidence
4. Decent dressing sense
5. No pretense... her just being herself
6. Easy to talk to and responsive
7. A good sense of humour
VI. 7 Celebrity crushes:
1. Keira Knightly
2. Nicole Kidman
3. Kate Winslet
4. Charlize Theron
5. Priyanka Chopra
6. Rani Mukherjee
7. Pamela Anderson (Comon folks! It's kinda natural! I was a kid when Barbwire hit the cinemas:P)
VII. 7 people i want to tag:
I'm sure the ones to be named here will curse me for coming back and making their lives miserable! But sorry guys! What has to be done, has to be done!
1. Divya
2. Naresh
3. Vivek (Comon buddy! Take out time for some less serious issues:P!)
4. Bhavesh (Same goes to you too! And this is quite an easy tag!)
5. VK (You're not working on the BTP, so might as well...:P)
6. Sameer Dwivedi
7. Amod
Next up is Naresh's tag! It's one tag I'd really like typing out the reply to;)!
Friday, April 07, 2006
The passage of time
Sunday, November 06, 2005!
I used to keep seeing this date for quite sometime after the particular day this string of characters is used to specify ended. After that, I stopped visitng this blog of mine which fell into desuetude, and no longer did I come across this date... but still, I kept thinking of it.
Mind you, all I did was think. First I was too busy to update my blog, later on too lazy. And now, after ages, that I sit down to key in the characters to this post, I feel kind of depressed thinking of what all I missed out in the past 4 odd months by not blogging... pouring my heart out into the posts with nothing held back, the click on the "Publish Post" button, getting the "blog published successfully" message, the comments from friends, etc.
Sigh! Time does fly by fast! In all this time, I've managed to "achieve" a lot of things! First and foremost, my primary reason for bidding adieu to Blogdom didn't pay off as I screwed up big time in the CAT (Common Admission Test)! The announcement of the results timed perfectly to match with the new year ensured a purrfect beginning to 2006. An over-ambitious B. Tech. Project (BTP) , being performed under a mentor with an unsatiable appetite for hard-work when it comes to his students (Can't comment on his appetite for foodstuffs! Confidential information:D), to be completed in the last semester with neither me nor my partner willing to put in any efforts! Gymming like I never have... and that too in the early morning (read 6 AM)!! Playing badminton and TT for hours at an end! Joining French classes and not regretting the decsion! Tres bien;)! Having to walk on the ramp, more of an impromptu act rather than a well prepared and well rehearsed one, in order not to ruin the college's image and in the process ruining my own! Going to Mt. Abu on an impulse, with my closest pals, without any kind of planning and yet having the time of our lives! Getting nostalgic and becoming closer to friends as our college lives are coming to an end!
It's sort of surprising that I, who had said what not about my college in many of my previous posts, am feeling pretty bad that I'll be leaving this place in a month:(. And the way my buddies are out publishing posts on their college experiences, and about the colege life they lived, on their blogs by the dozen, I can't help but feel a pang of guilt about not realizing earlier that life at college made me what I am now, gave me something called a personality, helped me grow,... made me the man that I am. Ofcourse there were lots of bad experiences, especially the times when I, like most others, faced the brunt of the babe-draught here;), but I guess it's all a part of the deal!
Now that I'm back for good (Hey! This ain't funny! I'm serious!), it's time to get down to business! First things first! I've got 2 tags pending and it's about time I fulfilled my duty of replying to them! Better late than never, as they say;)! After that, the usual claptrap that you guys have come to expect of me! Glad to see that not much has changed here! Most of you folks are blogging with fervor and it'll be a treat to read the posts that I missed out on!
So much for a comeback! More later...
Boy o boy! Sure feels good to be back8)!
Au revoir
I used to keep seeing this date for quite sometime after the particular day this string of characters is used to specify ended. After that, I stopped visitng this blog of mine which fell into desuetude, and no longer did I come across this date... but still, I kept thinking of it.
Mind you, all I did was think. First I was too busy to update my blog, later on too lazy. And now, after ages, that I sit down to key in the characters to this post, I feel kind of depressed thinking of what all I missed out in the past 4 odd months by not blogging... pouring my heart out into the posts with nothing held back, the click on the "Publish Post" button, getting the "blog published successfully" message, the comments from friends, etc.
Sigh! Time does fly by fast! In all this time, I've managed to "achieve" a lot of things! First and foremost, my primary reason for bidding adieu to Blogdom didn't pay off as I screwed up big time in the CAT (Common Admission Test)! The announcement of the results timed perfectly to match with the new year ensured a purrfect beginning to 2006. An over-ambitious B. Tech. Project (BTP) , being performed under a mentor with an unsatiable appetite for hard-work when it comes to his students (Can't comment on his appetite for foodstuffs! Confidential information:D), to be completed in the last semester with neither me nor my partner willing to put in any efforts! Gymming like I never have... and that too in the early morning (read 6 AM)!! Playing badminton and TT for hours at an end! Joining French classes and not regretting the decsion! Tres bien;)! Having to walk on the ramp, more of an impromptu act rather than a well prepared and well rehearsed one, in order not to ruin the college's image and in the process ruining my own! Going to Mt. Abu on an impulse, with my closest pals, without any kind of planning and yet having the time of our lives! Getting nostalgic and becoming closer to friends as our college lives are coming to an end!
It's sort of surprising that I, who had said what not about my college in many of my previous posts, am feeling pretty bad that I'll be leaving this place in a month:(. And the way my buddies are out publishing posts on their college experiences, and about the colege life they lived, on their blogs by the dozen, I can't help but feel a pang of guilt about not realizing earlier that life at college made me what I am now, gave me something called a personality, helped me grow,... made me the man that I am. Ofcourse there were lots of bad experiences, especially the times when I, like most others, faced the brunt of the babe-draught here;), but I guess it's all a part of the deal!
Now that I'm back for good (Hey! This ain't funny! I'm serious!), it's time to get down to business! First things first! I've got 2 tags pending and it's about time I fulfilled my duty of replying to them! Better late than never, as they say;)! After that, the usual claptrap that you guys have come to expect of me! Glad to see that not much has changed here! Most of you folks are blogging with fervor and it'll be a treat to read the posts that I missed out on!
So much for a comeback! More later...
Boy o boy! Sure feels good to be back8)!
Au revoir
