The drudgeries of life
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Constants in my life...
Yesterday was the storm before the ultimate lull. Seriously so.
What fun we had. It was almost like that one moment before dying when you get to see your entire life in a flash.
It was nice :)
I always treasure the constants in my life... just that these constants keep changing!
Bidding farewell to Chandu today was a moment that I'd have liked to escape using fast-forward mode... it was terribly sad.
And I'm such a crybaby!
Ironical it was: someone was exiting these gates for the final time, and at the same time a newbie was walking in through the same gates for the first time to give an interview.
Life as we know it... :)
I copied truckloads of movies, serials et al telling myself that I'll make good use of my time.
I tried watching something... within two minutes, I hit the close icon. It'll take time...
Realization: my life is an open blog.
Enough of it, I guess. Goodbye.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Us @ Guitar point!!
Tonight I lived a dream. A long cherished one.
Sitting at the guitar point with a bunch of close friends and singing, strumming away to glory! :)
Add to that the masti at A-top and sleeping on the roof under the clear blue sky, and that completed an awesome evening!
Sunita, Sud, Shail, Kumar, Rahul all are leaving tomorrow.
Anchit leaves the day after.
Then comes Chandu's turn!
The countdown to my becoming the last man standing has begun :D
I'll have just one pillar of strength remaining after that...
Oh well! Every night till the 28th is going to be a party night... anything to dull the pain!
What after that?! I seriously don't know.
Cheers!
Labels: A-lobby, A-top, Farewells, Guitar, Guitar point, IMT Ghaziabad, Party
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Yaaron :)
Today I realized what all was missing from life of late!
First of all, those long talks... today's conversation was like a flashback!
The list that follows is long! I so hate exams and what not for playing spoilsport :x
Previously we used to continuously discover how sme sme we are... but today crossed all limits!
How can someone dream the same dream that you dreamt, and, in it, feel the same emotions that you felt?!
I'm truly amazed :)
Couldn't see of my parents today :(
But I saw off a couple of good friends in the afternoon.
Every time I walk past their empty rooms with shut doors now, I can't help but wonder whether they're in there or whether they've gone for a wash!
Once I hit the door, and it sways away to reveal an empty room, devoid of all traces of occupation, I realize that they've really left for good...
Loved the visit to Delhi... standing at the 10th floor window of a building which was facing away from CP, I felt so nice!
The view was breathtaking, and I felt so in command for a few minutes :D
In the past 2 years, I had always awaited such a party!
I always had this dream of playing the guitar in one of our gang parties... today I did it!
And how awesome it was! Everyone was singing, I strummed like crazy (woohoo!), people got senti, and we had the time of our lives!
3 more days of this, and then it's all over....
Oh well! In the meantime, planning to party next at the Guitar Point @ A-lobby :)
Very sleepy, but very very happy too!
Hope this ephemeral happiness lasts...
Bye bye!
Labels: Conversations, Dreams, Farewells, Guitar, Happiness, Happy Endings, Party, People
Monday, March 22, 2010
Claustrophobia
Trying trying and trying to avoid this sinking feeling... it's hard being the last man standing!
All the people I love seem to be leaving me at the time when I need them the most :(
It's funny how I always wished that I'd be the last person to leave, who'd see off everyone and then take off himself... I really never know what I wish for, do I?! :P
When I didn't understand what was happening, I simply smiled.
I controlled myself yesterday. But I knew I couldn't keep that up for long...
Today Manish left and the feeling intensified...
Sid leaves tomorrow, Sunita the day-after, Chandu on the 28th, many more in between...
Add to that the crazy amount of travelling, the physical and mental fatigue, the dejection, Monday blues...
And I couldn't control my emotions any longer... A sincere apology to the awesome person who had to bear witness to the ugly side of me!
Just so that you know ji: There are very few people in front of whom I can afford to be myself... you're one of those unlucky few! Thanks for bearing with me... and for cheering me up :)
A mail from an aunt cheered me up... she quoted some text which was awesome. It went like this:
When you feel that God is ribbing you against the rocks, don't think that you ruin down to dust... it is just that he is polishing a gem.
Had a nostalgic evening with a close group of friends.
Kinda feeling relaxed now. Back to normalcy.
Long day tomorrow. After that a break of one week!
Cya
Labels: Dejection, Endings, Farewells, Monday, Nostalgia, Thinking
Thursday, March 04, 2010
All in a day's work :)
I had told a dear friend that if today's day ends, I'd shout out loudly, "Wow! I survived!!!" :D
Not only did I survive, but today was such a memorable day for various reasons! :)
Yesterday ended when it seemed that it would go on forever... at 8 AM today morning!
Glass after glass of drinks, such a lot of dancing, not to mention the emotions - the smiles, the laughs, the tears, the hugs, the frenzy!
Long day ahead... I had to submit the Retail Marketing final project by today 5 PM; also, we had the Teachers' Thanksgiving scheduled from 4 PM to 6 PM; I had my final MHRM (measurement in HRM) project presentation at 6 PM (bang after the Thanksgiving!). Also had to rehearse for the skit (an integral part of the Thanksgiving) at 12 noon!
Yes, long day indeed!
Anyway best thing about today was that it was an Anniversary of sorts! And what a romantic start to the day!
Bon anniversaire, mademoiselle ♥
I got into bed but sleep evaded me!
At 12, Vijay woke me up for the rehearsals... that BP breath refused to let go of me :P
Rehearsals were fine... we're actually going ahead with the skit!!!
Despite the lead character having to back out at the last moment, Ankur was such a sport to fill in at the last moment! Admire him like anything B)
Then came the narrator's backing out... Sanjay sir took up the job, despite having such a lot of compering workload! You rock, sirji!
I multitasked a bit during the rehearsals, and managed to finish up my part of the Retail Marketing project! :D
Back in the room at 2 PM, I tried to study for my 6 PM presentation, and skimmed through some documents!
Before I knew it, it was 3:30 PM!!
Got ready and left for the Teachers' Thanksgiving!
The guys were hard at work there...
As soon as the clock struck 4 PM, the faculty started streaming in, as did many B1ers!!
We had profs who had taught us way back in trimester 1, to profs who're teaching us now, in trimester 6! Even our placements coordinator was present :)
Soon, our Director arrived and we started the show...
I can describe the sequence of events detail-by-detail but that'd take ages... the next 2 hours were the best Teachers' Day experience ever!
The compering was awesome, kudos to Pushkar and Sanjay sir!
The skit was fantabulous... yours truly had the honor of being in the play with some of the finest actors on campus B)
Mughal-e-azam Reloaded was a major success!!!!!!
Sanjay sir's brilliant compering had no comparison ;)
Ankur as Akbar, and Vijay as Birbal stole the show... everyone else did a sexy job!
The mimicry was excellent... the teachers loved watching the avatars of themselves or of their colleagues :P
The tokens of appreciation distribution ceremony came next.
And then each of the professors spoke about us, B1... praised us up, rather! :)
Even the Director spent a long time speaking good words about us :)
Shucks! I got the goosebumps seeing the professors so happy, and talking about B1 so fondly :)
Yep! B1 is a brand!!! ♥
Next up, the sexy power point presentation that Vikas had prepared! Too good B)
Then, after 2.5 hours of awesomeness, we bid a final farewell to our teachers! It was such a neat farewell!
Who knows we might've just started a trend of sorts ;)
The following is a group picture of those who make up Brand B1 (taken just after the successful conclusion of the event):
B1 Rocks!!!
The Thanksgiving function winded up at 6:40... I was 30 minutes late for the MHRM class!!
Made a mad rush for the classroom!
On entering I discovered that my groupies had started the presentation without me... so I joined in!
Ankira informed me that the next section would be mine to speak on... and I went like "Whaaaat?! I haven't even seen the ppt :(
Oh well! The next slide came and I started doling out bullshit... thank God! I can talk on anything and everything B)
So, interspersing my talk with the same sentences in Active and Passive Voice, and quoting examples of Infosys, I finished my job to perfection! LoL! :P
Our group ended the presentation on a high note, and for the first time, the prof asked the class to clap for the good work we had done ;)
Woohoo!!!
Anyway, back to the room now! Totally exhausted!
Visited the rooms of many friends, and collected pics of the Thanksgiving ceremony plus yesterday's farewell party :)
The videos of the play are awesomeeee!! Watched the same time and again with different group of friends....
Yippeee! Now for a freeeeeeee Friday! TGIF!!
Off to sleep now! Will upload pics tomorrow and publish the links :)
In a very very senti mood too!
Love,
Steve
Labels: B1, Farewells, IMT, Long day, Mughal-e-Azam, Skit, Teacher, Thanksgiving
Farewell time.. again
Starting 5 PM yesterday, we, the IMT students, batch of 2008-10 had our farewell!
People say "Well begun is half done"... I beg to disagree! It is more like "Well ended is fully done" :)
And there couldn't have been a better ending (albeit the formal, on the records ending :p)!
The batch of 2009-11 did a fantabulous job, and most of us were left in tears when it ended :'(
Talk about the end of the end!!
What a night! Everyone dressed up to kill! The ladies were looking sexy, the guys looking dashing!
It was almost as if people were poking you and saying, "Bugger, you took us for granted all this long... we're much different that how you thought we were!"
B1 as usual rocked the night! I never realized how much I'd come to love these 60 people... they'd become a part of my daily life (despite my bunking so many lectures :p).
And while hugging so many of them tonight, sobbing, and comforting each other, I realized that a bunch of people can't get more closer to you in less than 21 months!
Clicked truckloads of pics! Woohoo! Got to collect the pics clicked by 5 other friends too... then to publicize it all :P
Have a final project submission today, and also another final project presentation!
Also have a crucial role in a skit that we've planned (and rehearsed for) for our esteemed faculty :) The dialogue in Sindhi seems to be my biggest nemesis as of now :D
Plus now I'm on a highhh!
Yippee! My last chance of many to successfully wrap up everything before calling it a day... Hail MBAs and hail IMT!
Busy busy day! More later....
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Endings and Farwells
*Sighs*
It seems like I've been performing a SWOT analysis of myself for quite some time. And each post is probably a repercussionof the same.
Two weaknesses of mine are quite obovious!
First is an incapability to properly deal with the ending of anything remotely good, be it a movie, a book, a relationship, a conversation, a game, a journey, a visit, anything for that matter. The main reason why I suppose I don't enjoy things to the maximum is because I'm hounded by thoughts of its end not being far away! I'm reminded of my childhood where I used to take really small bites or nibble at icecreams or goodies just to make sure that they lasted longer. It took me time to realize the sad truth that nothing lasts forever!
I guess it'll be the same case when my life is about to end! No, I don't think about death... I'm too busy enjoying my life, and I'm thankful for that! Watching myself dying is something I so don't want to deal with! Call me a coward or whatever, but I really pray that I don't have a miserable, slow death... as compared to lying in bed with a terminal disease eating me up slowly by slowly, or being injected with poison which takes effect at a miserable, leisurely pace, I'd prefer getting struck by lightening, getting shot in the heart, getting swiftly run over! That's it... over in a jiffy!
But anything said and done, endings make me realize how greedy I am... there's always a lingering feeling of had I got a little more of it, a little more time, a longer conversation, a never-ending story, a slef-replenishing bank account :D, a little more room in my tummy to prolong the meal, etc.
Farewells! I suck at them, that too big time! I always hated saying good byes and so longs... I somehow used to get misty eyed as the time to take leave came nearer, and by the time I was leaving, I'd be crying like hell! It amazed my parents how much I could cry! This went on till I was in the 7th standard! When I left my parents and sister for college, I promised myself I'd not shed a tear and though I had that stinging in my eye as I saw them off, I didn't let a drop spill! But the damn college farewell did me in! It was probably the 4 years of beautiful friendships, the strong bonds I had forged with the place and its inhabitants that made me lose my grip on myself! I cried like a kid amidst the closest of my friends! It just sort of happened! Not that I'm embarrassed or anything (why would I be publicising it otherwise), it's just to highlight the fact that though farewells are a part of life, growing accustomed to them is not at all easy!
Life has its way of playing cruel jokes on you... but it makes up for the same in other ways!
An anonymous "Good Morning" message on your desk, some lovely smses, some really long yet cherished mails, happy coincidences, serendipity, long talks about nothing in particular... Who knows remembering these little things might make moving on all the more difficult at some point, but isn't it wiser to live for the moment?
It seems like I've been performing a SWOT analysis of myself for quite some time. And each post is probably a repercussionof the same.
Two weaknesses of mine are quite obovious!
First is an incapability to properly deal with the ending of anything remotely good, be it a movie, a book, a relationship, a conversation, a game, a journey, a visit, anything for that matter. The main reason why I suppose I don't enjoy things to the maximum is because I'm hounded by thoughts of its end not being far away! I'm reminded of my childhood where I used to take really small bites or nibble at icecreams or goodies just to make sure that they lasted longer. It took me time to realize the sad truth that nothing lasts forever!
I guess it'll be the same case when my life is about to end! No, I don't think about death... I'm too busy enjoying my life, and I'm thankful for that! Watching myself dying is something I so don't want to deal with! Call me a coward or whatever, but I really pray that I don't have a miserable, slow death... as compared to lying in bed with a terminal disease eating me up slowly by slowly, or being injected with poison which takes effect at a miserable, leisurely pace, I'd prefer getting struck by lightening, getting shot in the heart, getting swiftly run over! That's it... over in a jiffy!
But anything said and done, endings make me realize how greedy I am... there's always a lingering feeling of had I got a little more of it, a little more time, a longer conversation, a never-ending story, a slef-replenishing bank account :D, a little more room in my tummy to prolong the meal, etc.
Farewells! I suck at them, that too big time! I always hated saying good byes and so longs... I somehow used to get misty eyed as the time to take leave came nearer, and by the time I was leaving, I'd be crying like hell! It amazed my parents how much I could cry! This went on till I was in the 7th standard! When I left my parents and sister for college, I promised myself I'd not shed a tear and though I had that stinging in my eye as I saw them off, I didn't let a drop spill! But the damn college farewell did me in! It was probably the 4 years of beautiful friendships, the strong bonds I had forged with the place and its inhabitants that made me lose my grip on myself! I cried like a kid amidst the closest of my friends! It just sort of happened! Not that I'm embarrassed or anything (why would I be publicising it otherwise), it's just to highlight the fact that though farewells are a part of life, growing accustomed to them is not at all easy!
Life has its way of playing cruel jokes on you... but it makes up for the same in other ways!
An anonymous "Good Morning" message on your desk, some lovely smses, some really long yet cherished mails, happy coincidences, serendipity, long talks about nothing in particular... Who knows remembering these little things might make moving on all the more difficult at some point, but isn't it wiser to live for the moment?
