The drudgeries of life
Monday, January 31, 2011
After a long time, a weekend in the true sense of the term!
Lots of fun, ample amount of relaxation, loads of happiness etc. despite the office visit...
And lots to look forward to too :)
When a day ends with a meal wherein a huge chocolate pyramid makes up the starters, and a brownie topped with a double scoop of vanilla (plus loads of chocolate sauce) as the main course, there's so much to be happy about :p
That was that!
Now back to the routine life. Nothing like a Monday to puncture cloud number 9 and to ensure a crash landing onto reality...
Will be missing 2 marriages of 2 good friends the coming weekend! Unless of course a miracle happens...
Other than that, the To Do list is overflowing! Need to start ticking items off it. Before that, need to finish watching the Millennium Trilogy... heard that the movies are as good as Stieg Larsson's books.
Good luck with the Monday blues!
And good night...
Labels: Friends, Happiness, Life, Party, To do, Weekends
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Office office!
Today, for the first time in almost 32 months, I felt that I entered office.
So what if it was in an entirely different attire? I had suited up for the occasion :)
Felt so much at home.
The upper management was polite to the core... cool, if I may!
Ok, the crowd seemed a lot better.
The people as usual were neat, to say the least.
Adherence to process... sighs! Don't you simply love systematicness?
The decor... yeah, where have I seen that before?!
Even the paper towels in the rest room hadn't changed :p
Everything was similar... yet it wasn't.
I entered late, and I exited early, despite wanting to stay back! When have these three things coincided in the recent past?!
Saturday came... Saturday happened.
What a day! Happy vappy!!!
Sloshed now :D
Fingers, toes, and everything else crossed :)
Labels: Changes, Office, Saturday
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Suit up!!
Reflections
Know that feeling you get when you're sandwiched between two parallel mirrors, like in a dressing room?
You keep seeing yourself seeing yourself on and on.
It's a wee bit scary. Akin to being trapped in an infinite loop.
Stare a bit longer and you'll feel like you're witnessing your own descent into an abyss.
One mirror is more than sufficient, no?
The crux of the matter: Too much of self reflection is a bane.
Time to break the mold, I say!
Just focus on the present you.
Let other things take their own course...
Labels: Random
Friday, January 28, 2011
55 word fiction
Long long time after I read this amazing collection of 55 word stories by some exceptional bloggers, I stumbled across this link again!
Fascinating stuff! Some short stories are outrightly brilliant!
Given that the word limit is just 55, the stories end before they even begin, but the surprise ending in some would've done O. Henry proud :)
A couple of my favorites:
The Worker
The sun was shining, a blazing yellow-white. Heedlessly they trudged on.“But do I have to?” he thought. "What if I break the pattern?"
He paused and started walking off in another direction. At a tangent.Immediately he was swept away by a huge monstrosity that he never even saw coming at him.
“Damn ants”
The prettiest thing
She looked amazing in red. There she was, like a roman goddess, topless. No fear, shame or guilt.
The setting sun toyed with her looks. Her man was right there but I did not stop looking.
The light turned green and she took off and my friend says “A convertible Ferrari, now that’s a car.”
The wedding night
I shuddered slightly as I remembered his touch setting my body aflame. I turned as my groom entered the nuptial chamber. “Are you nervous,” he whispered as he gently lifted my veil. “Yes,” I stammered. “Its my first time,” silently adding, with you.
Principles Of Lust
I looked at her with growing lust in my eyes.
Slowly, I undressed her, unwrapped her beautiful gold gown.
She looked wonderful, in all her glowing brown splendour
Teasingly, I drew her close to my lips....
and proceeded to take a large bit out of her.
I love chocolate.....
Happy reading!
And a happy weekend... I just can't wait for tomorrow!
Adios!
Labels: Short Stories
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Relapse
Time flies.
People change.
Feelings, emotions and loads of intangible things undergo mutation.
Perspectives undergo an upheaval.
Lifestyles get altered.
Seasons roll on.
Age creeps in.
Life goes on...
Ironical though that nothing has actually moved on!
Then one fine day, restoration happens.
Somewhere someone decides it's time to hit the reset button.
And it's deja vu all over again... well almost!
Relapse is the rule of nature, I guess :)
Keep it rolling...
Labels: Changes, Life, Relapse
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
shhhh
Blank mind...
Pithy memories.
Silence...
Subtle music.
Darkness...
Distant lights.
Idle...
Fidgetiness.
Enervated...
Bustling.
Static...
Chords.
Recovery...
Relapse.
Impasse...
Closure.
Callous...
Sentimental.
Pessimistic...
Hopeful.
Captive...
Freedom.
Insomnia...
Sleep.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Window Seat
Since childhood, I've always fancied sitting by the window - be it at home where I'd climb atop the sofa, and look out the drawing room window at the lawn and what lay beyond the boundary wall; or during the several train journeys I've undertaken till date (and I used to hate traveling on those seldom occasions when a window seat was not mine!), where I'd want to do nothing but absorb the landscapes speeding by, tracking the wires that seemed to be keeping up with me, pole to pole, not to mention gaping at the railway tracks that made weird zigzag patterns all along the way... and at night time, the flickering lights would always remind me of stars that had been generous enough to grace the earth with their presence; then there are the various road trips, either via buses, cars, and what not (thank goodness I've hardly, if ever, experienced nausea on these trips) where I stare out at everything passing by and simply weave some dreamy story around them (with me as the protagonist, ofcourse!)... Of late, bagging the window seat in all the flights is top priority for me, and nothing matches the feeling of floating through the kingdom of clouds and looking down to see tiny specks dotting the world!
There are so many things about my upbringing that I love, but one of the favorites has got to be those annual trips with the parents and my kid sister. I used to look forward to these family outings more than anything... Ok, maybe Santa Claus took precedence during the holiday season for a sizable period during my childhood :p
Though till date I haven't been able to figure out properly what I want to do with/in my life, but those travels ensured that I'm confident about one thing: that I want to travel like crazy and see the whole world before calling it quits.
For starters, I've been living a part of that dream since 2002 by covering a major chunk of India! By the time 2011 gets over, I hope to cover 2 of the 4 remaining parts of our country that I've not had a chance to visit... Next step: Going international!
Wishful thinking? Oh well!
Talking about seeing, that was all I had been doing till a couple of years back. Then something fascinating happened: I started looking beyond what I saw! I fell in love with the camera. Blimey, a window seat person who courts a camera: that's a complete package! :p
My parents were more than resourceful in this aspect too... they loved clicking pics and have churned out numerous beautiful albums for various occasions! In retrospect, I kinda regret not having imbibed this love for the lens from my folks and thus, not having a passion for photography since the beginning... I could've captured so much more! Glad that it's never too late...
Anyway got back from a whirlwind trip to a village (oops sorry! tehsil) for a very close friend's marriage... one year after one of my best friends' marriage! Despite the 6 hours late train that almost made me cancel the trip, and the slowcoach connecting train that was hellbent on making me miss the festivities, I reached the venue just in time for the baraat to take off! Phew!
Half of the times we do things at the last moment on purpose, and the other half when we start early, nature conspires against us to ensure a last second execution!
Saw Lalla after 5 years, and boy! He looked good... must've shed 15-20 kgs over the years in France!
The arrangements were the best I had seen till date, the food was yummy (though we started with the desserts, and pretty much didn't stop till we were full to the brim!), the crowd was nice, enjoyed the company of cool small town people. Had an amazing time to say the least!
Many of my colleagues, friends, and relatives always question me on how the hell I keep finding time to travel! Subtle hypocrisy on their part... they never bother to notice when I'm slogging it off, but I can feel their envy when I'm up and about. Tut tut. So what if I publicize my outings more than my work life?! :p
It's ironical that I hate changes, yet I love the most classical manifestation of change: traveling! ;)
This is never going to change. Amen.
Anyway, I've become a pro at avoiding the drudgery of Mondays :p
Time to hit the sack! Back to work in 9 hours...
Good night!
P.S.: Read "The Last Lecture"... loved it despite it being about such a sad, sensitive issue! So much so, sent off one copy to the parents... watch out for it, folks :)
P.P.S.: 25th of January. Special day! :)
Labels: Friends, Life, Seat, Traveling, Window
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Same time, last year...
I'm a tad bit confused... is this seriously a new year, or have I walked back into the last year again?!
Not a silly question, mind you, given my proficiency at ending up at square one time and again...
But no, seriously! Comparing January 2010 and January 2011, I'm reminded of the billboard outside a certain shop I came across in Leh, which read: "Same Same But Different".
The irony of it all! Sighs.
2010 had started off on a perfect high... 2011 has had a rocking start as well.
Le mois de Janvier, 2010, accompanied by the ravishing cold, beautiful weather, enchanting company, truckloads of optimism and positivity et al promised a fresh approach to everything... same holds true for the current month.
There was so much to look forward to at this point of time, last year... that too applies to the present.
Had watched Chance Pe Dance in the 3rd week of 2010, and walked out of the multiplex with a scrambled brain... Experienced Dhobi Ghat this time, and still debating with myself whether to like the movie or to hate it (ok, loved the cinematography, not to forget the somewhat haunting and engrossing relation between Arun & Yasmin!)
I was cribbing about packing one such night, exactly 365 days ago... today I'm doing the same. (Call me a hypocrite, if you may, for loving traveling yet hating the P of its precursor!)
Attended a dear friend's marriage, the first of the year on a Sunday at almost the same time in MMX... going to do an encore for another dear friend's marriage tomorrow, only this time the counter goes up to MMXI!
The ensuing Monday last time was meant to be a dreaded day full of boring lectures (but not everything that is meant to be actually happens!)... the coming Monday is all set to be a long boring day at work (though I tweaked some strings and ensured that nothing of that sort plays spoilsport...)
So on and so forth...
Back to the irony bit.
Though the starting months of both the years in question have a striking resemblance, they're totally different... poles apart!
Situations are similar, but the circumstances are different.
Identities have been retained, yet images have undergone drastic changes.
Personae are the same, but the people are strangers.
Reactions are ditto, but the chemistry is strangely new.
Feelings are intact, but reservations have flourished.
Age is almost the same, yet the youthfulness seems to have aged.
As the popular song November Rain goes: Cause nothin' lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change...
Extrapolate, please.
In retrospect, it seems like one whole year passed by in a jiffy, though there were several moments, good and bad, that seemed to last a lifetime. God's way of saying, "How selfish that you wish to freeze only the happy moments!"
All said and done, I don't know where 2011 is headed, but I certainly don't want it to end up like 2010.
Anyway, the show must go on!
Enough of rambling. As much as I tried to postpone the darn thing, I must pack! :(
And have to get up at 5:30, on a Sunday of all days :'(
So till next week, adios!
Have an awesome weekend!
Labels: 2010, 2011, Beginnings, Friends, January, Marriage, Memories, Nostalgia, Time, Travel
Friday, January 21, 2011
Blooper!
Apologies! What showed up out here earlier was a repercussion of reinstating some old stuff...
It all happened unwittingly :)
Back to HIMYM... later...
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Now-stall-gee-ahh
Logged in to Orkut after eons... and when I mean eons, I mean aeons!
Can't believe it's still there...
Haha Google is desperately trying to revive their pet project! I just earned two badges: An Early User badge for having used Orkut for over 5 years, and some Silver Verified Account badge, whatever that means.
Doesn't Google realize that it's too late now?! They let FB steal a major chunk of their member base from right under their huuge nose! FB has done all the damage already. There's no turning back. Damn realization dawns late these days :|
Anyway I'm glad that I never deleted my Orkut account... truckloads of memories stowed in there...
Plus that awesome music playing in the background too!
Super-nostalgic!!
The starting of the 3 days-sequence reading W T F ain't bad at all... cool day at work, neat party in the evening, and the evening refuses to end!
W certainly stands for Wow...
T F?! Go figure :p
P.S.: Orkut's daily fortune tells me: Better safe than sorry! lmao
Labels: Awesomeness, Life, Nostalgia, Orkut, Realization, Wednesday
Nothing else matters!
These days are all about Pink Floyd, Metallica, Iron Maiden, Led Zeppelin, Guns n' Roses, U2, Hoobastank... you get the drift, right?
Listening to some songs over and over ad infinitum.
As of now, while(1) {Play("Mama said..."); }
Addicted!!
Rock on.
Labels: addictions, In loop, Music
iRising
Ahhhhh! Nothing like a weekend in the middle of the week.
No alarms, no hitting the snooze a million times, no long rides to and from the workplace, no undue pressure!
The last 24 hours were all about 12 hours of sleep, cleaning up, an awesome lunch, lolling around on the lawns in the mild winter sun (when have I done that before?) while cute kiddies kept running around all over the show, sexy songs, the guitar, fun evening out, long conversations, so on and so forth.
The best thing about overwork is its aftermath. Some contrast! :)
Talking of contrast, there are so many shades of life. And sometimes the dark ones simply overshadow the others... try as you may, you can't use water color to brighten them up. Some things need to be left the way they are.
I believe what had to happen, happened. At times, the initial chemistry is just a run up to the eventual blow up. Boom! Some things are simply not meant to be, and there's no way anyone can change that, no matter how much one wants to. It's hard to live with artificial changes anyway...
Just want to quote Hoobastank: And so I have to say before I go, that I just want you to know: I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be... a reason to start over new... and the reason is you...
It's a final goodbye from my end. Have a nice life :)
Getting addicted to HIMYM big time... a sober version of Friends, it is. I can totally relate to the character of Ted Mosby! Don't know whether to be happy about it or sad :p
Just this once I thought I'd hit the sack early, but that was not meant to be either!
I've heard people quoting this observation many a time, but just this once, now that Tuesday's gone, it struck me that the next three days read W T F.
Somehow get the feeling that things at office are going to be a tad bit different starting tomorrow!
Bonnuit tout le monde!
P.S.: I sure hope no one at IIMI takes offence at the post title resembling their Online Quizzing extravaganza that I like so much!
P.P.S.: The earth's belly just rumbled! The chandelier swinging like a pendulum is an eerie sight... Praying that everyone's safe in Pakistan, the epicenter of the massive 7.4 magnitude earthquake, and in India!
Labels: Change, Giving up, Happiness, Holiday, Life, Relaxation, Work
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Jaded
Like someone once was so fond of saying, "So tired that I can't sleep."
Finally, at 11:55 PM, after 127 hours of drudgery, I experienced freedom. The hour long shower was much needed to wash off the exhaustion and the lingering elements of the workplace.
Work is work, I know, but sometimes it can be such a pain in the ass. Add to that, the deja vu of experiencing the same misery last time round, and the person responsible for it mentioning that next time onwards everything will be streamlined. Farce as we know it... nothing changed.
Time to get back to personal life. Some important people start complaining if they're not given their due. Apologies *murga style*. Sighs :p
The chaos ain't yet over, but fuck me if I'm headed back to the same place again tomorrow. I love exploiting loopholes, and this artificial chaos is one big friggin' loophole!!
That said, the last 6 days at work can be summed as an awesome gamut of work experiences! Got to work with some of the best people in the business, managed to meet absurd deadlines, interpreted wacky requirements, reworked my ass off, partied and then slept at office, finally delivered a sexy end product (gosh! 16 versions of it, if I may!!), and forged a strong bond of friendship with someone whom I never thought I'd even talk to properly!!
Love that beautiful Britannia ad which goes: Zindagi roz humari class leti hai... nursery se school... phir college... aur ab yahaan...
Meaning: Life screws you on a daily basis.... from nursery to school... then college... and now here....
Enough for now. Something seems to have triggered off a yawning fit. *hic*
Bonnuit.
Labels: Freedom, Frustration, Life, Work
Monday, January 17, 2011
One Sunday Night @ Office
In my two-and-a-half years of work experience, I've witnessed extremes... crazily busy days and totally relaxed office hours. But of late, what I'm getting to experience is something radically different - hectic weeks!
Since last Wednesday, all I can remember about my home is reaching there completely jaded at about midnight, and waking up a few hours later only to head for office again. Vicious cycle, yes!
As if that wasn't what a work-life balance lover like me loathes, I'm publishing this post live from office at 3 AM! Voila! Quite a romantic way to spend the weekend, especially Sunday night, nay? :p
Oh well! Frustrating as it is, it's satisfying is some weird way too. Work is work. I'd always heard about life at small firms, but seeing it up close and living it is something! Plus the company of a couple of really awesome colleagues is a bonanza in such situations! Some people are way too talented :)
Also, I can gladly boast of partying (in the true sense of the term) at office! That's one more item ticked off my crazy To Do list!! LoL
24 hours more of slogging and then job's done! I can take a couple of comp-offs on weekdays! Yeyeye
Just this once, I don't dread the onset of Monday... continuity dulls the 'Garfield effect', I guess.
Time to get back to work!
Nightynight...
Labels: Life, Office, Weekends, Work
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Sme sme
I know that I work in the marketing department of a small firm which operates in a fragmented niche market where it has to strive hard to position itself as a strong contender to the few biggies, but I never expected that the job profile encompasses working like a madman, even on weekends!
And as things stand, Sunday and Monday are set to be longer than long days... just like Friday and Saturday were.
I've always preferred moderation over extremities... so what if all days remain the same? It's better than being free on some days, and having a messed up routine on the remaining days.
The way things were going today, I became a chimney after 2 long months! So much for that...
Just when I reached home at midnight, I got to read that petrol prices have gone up... yet again! Gosh, can't inflation stay put, and prices remain the same for a considerable time at least?! To hell with politics and economics...
In addition to inflation, accidents, floods, riots, rape, murder, crappy movie reviews et al make up a major chunk of the papers. Not that I have anything against the incidents... the sensationalization of it all is what sucks. What's with news becoming more of a money minting business of late? Can't it be the same as it was in the previous decade?!
It's true that the only constant thing in our lives these days is change.
I hate change. I try to cling on to what was the best about every moment that life has been so considerate to offer.
Wish it were that simple...
Wish everything would remain sme sme...
Happy weekend! I'll be working my ass off :p
Labels: Bad news, Change, Life, Message, Work
Saturday, January 15, 2011
I see...
Systematically creating panic is some people's forte!
By now I should've gotten used to it, but every time there's a new tactic, and by the end of the day, I am flummoxed at how I've ended up in the same mess as last time. Respecttt :p
So from the way things are going, I have another screwed up weekend in front of me. FML
Despite the long, tiring days at work, the long drive home is kinda gratifying.
I stay many miles away from my workplace... In my previous job too, there was a considerable distance between where I put up and where I worked...
People think I'm crazy to travel so much every day, but it's a personal choice. I simply love long rides... sometimes it helps me unwind on the way home, and when I'm back at my place, all I look forward to doing is relaxing without the slightest takeaway from office.
The hard part is the morning travel... it takes quite an effort to convince myself every morn to get the hell out of bed, and to get ready for the bike ride :|
Once I'm on my way though, the only thing that irritates me is that I'm not carrying my camera... there's so much that I see, such a lot that I'd love to capture, so many ideas that pop up in my head... I've almost made up my mind to sometime take a month-long break from work and simply wander around with just my camera in tow!
Today I got back from office just before midnight. Just the thought of spending the night there increases my efficiency and effectiveness :p
Whamooshed!
Hope I get the Sabbath Day off...
Good night, sleep tight.
P.S.: The tags give an indication of what my posts are all about... sighs.
Labels: Life, Long rides, Travel, Work
Thursday, January 13, 2011
My bad!
Partying on weekdays takes it toll! Phew!
Add to that the bitterness that keeps surfacing when I'm high... damn the irony!
Those at the receiving end of what I churn out at such instances: it probably meant a lot to me, hence the outbursts.
I desperately wanted to leave 2010 behind, but guess somethings just spill over.
There I go again...
Love the current weather. The cold seems to have subsided all of a sudden!
Time to get back to work...
Happy Lohri, people :)
Labels: Feelings, Mood swings, Party
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Tuesday's gone :)
How appropriate for people to converge in on my life and for things to happen as they did, so as to convince me into restoring my blog before it's too late... and to ensure, unwittingly of course, that the post title is damn appropriate!
Like Metallica put it: Train roll on, on down the line... won't you please take me far, far away...
2010 was a crazy year! It started off well, or so I thought... and then came a time when I couldn't wait for it to end.
Something like witnessing a beautiful landscape at night and wanting to capture it on camera just the way it is, no matter how difficult the task... and then after repeated attempts and numerous blurred images in the memory card, giving up seems to be the best option. Running out of patience is an eventuality.
If a picture has to come out well, it will in the first dozen attempts... nature doesn't conspire against you when you truly want something to happen :)
Like Mourya put it so beautifully, "what has to work out will work out... there's no use trying to make compromises just to hold on to certain things." You said it, girl!
All of this reminds me, I need to summarize 2010 in words... so much happened in those 365 days. Sighs!
I know that 2011 is just another number that started off a dozen days ago (going by a rule scripted by an ancient Pope), but kudos to the human psyche for making the optimum use of such idiocies...
Believe it or not, I can notice the difference! Remember how we react when, after being blindfolded for a while, the blindfold is suddenly whisked off our eyes? We tend to keep our eyes shut tightly... the brightness is too much to bear... the darkness will do for a while. Then when we slowly get used to the light, normalcy ahoy...
2010 took away with it the blindfold. No more, please... I'm as sensitive as my drowsy eyes are...
As has been the case for the past month: It's a damn cold night... I'm trying to figure out this life...
Meanwhile I'm trying to maintain that much need work life balance! Go go go!
Lots to catch up on...
Happy 2011, everyone! Have a fantabulous year :)
P.S.:
A wonderful read on leaving what should be left! 2010 from Desi's perspective... struck a chord!
Labels: 2011, Beginnings, Changes, New Year